i really don’t associate or blame my feelings on what has happened to me.
but now that i think of it… i get extremely defensive because that is the only way i know how to react when someone fucks with me or starts joking around. i usually get the “god its just a joke. relax.”
no, you relax. just be cool. don’t say any weird shit, or something that may be remotely offensive.
or teasing me like flirting, but not really. i don’t really know for sure.
but i associate it now with how much bullying i went through my entire time in school. i feel as though it could have traumatized me a little.
i would never say anything like this is i didn’t think i needed a second, third or fourth opinion on it.